Has the day of today again. Went back to the hospital to do a check up and the doc prescribed a neck support device (the thing that looks like a neck cast). DaysD. I either look like I have a neck fracture or retarded. Either way, I look weird as f. Spent the day doing my own projects for side income. I can't help but think and wonder how she's doing. I really wish I could talk to her again or even see her (maybe, just maybe, a part of me wishes to show her this blog but the majority of me doesn't want to freak her out) but at the same time, I don't want to involve her with my life. Hurting her happiness goes against everything that I wish for, hence, I try to stay quiet (or at least out of her way).
Sigh. Why does it hurt so much when you love someone, even more when you're apart or even, can't be together. Heck, in just thinking to much. How could she even fall in love with a mental guy like me in the first place. I shouldn't even think that there's even the tiniest bit that she'd even fall for me or that there's a one in a million chance that there was even a moment together. Sigh...
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