November 28th, 2018 [Wednesday]

Sigh... the first thing I did today was wrong.. Made quite a bit of a mess after that resulting in slow progress trying to clean up the mess, affecting the workload and other departments.. Feel sorry and really really bad to be causing them problems. I really miss her so bad. I guess what I really want to say is that I wish I could see her again and if I could, I wish that I could relive those moments with her again. Sigh.. my mental state.. is really beyond hope.. whatever the hell happened that makes me think of her so much. I was doing so well at suppressing and.. and.. what happened? Sigh.. it hurts.